This year has been a big year for me. Mostly my year has been focused on college and blogging. After an entire year I got my Cert 4 (which should get me into university) and I'm still blogging.
Last year, I remember talking to someone and saying something like, "No, I don't want to go back to school. I quit and I don't want to go back." And this year I was so determined and I really wanted to be there. Since I left high school that has never been the case but I'm so ready to go to university and expand my horizon. I'm going to be studying literature and writing so I'll be in my element and (hopefully) with people who love writing and reading as much as I do.
I started this blog in March this year because I submitted something to Text Publishing for the Text Prize. Obviously I didn't win but this blog has endured.
A few years ago I would have never committed to either of these things. I was so stuck that I just couldn't. But as I've learned everything is changing and will continue to do so. I think Taylor Swift said it best: "All I ever do is learn from my mistakes so I don't make the same ones again.... I know people can change because it happens to me little by little every day. Every day I wake up as someone slightly new. Isn't it wild and intriguing and beautiful to think that every day we are new?"
I went from being jobless and out of school last year, to having a job and doing really well in college this year. This change hasn't been easy, in fact, this year has been tough. But I've pushed through and now I'm going to university next year. This is something I'd never thought I could do. It was akin to climbing a mountain: impossible. But it's not.
I think these quotes sum up 2014 for me:
"But the thing about life is there there's only one ending to it. Mostly, life keeps going, and unless you make the choice Jake did, you have to keep going, too." The Shattering by Karen Healey
"I think maybe everybody falls. I think maybe we all do. And I don't think that's the asking. I think the asking is whether we get back up again." The Knife of Never Letting Go by Patrick Ness
"In the tree of my life, this year was a ring dark and deep, embedded further than any other year had or ever would be. This was the year when I was hollowed out and came back from nothing." Blink Once by Cylin Busby
Here's to a great 2015.
Anjulie Te Pohe
Founder of Koru Mag | Mookychick contributor | Avid reader and writer of YA | Takatapui (Maori & bi/queer) | She/Them | Contact: firstname.lastname@example.org